*Sigh*...this is one of those LOOOONG weeks! Yesterday I thought it was Thursday......
AF is due sometime this week, and she is kicking my ass! Why is it some months, i have NO symptoms at all....and she just appears one morning.....whereas other months, its like this drawn out week long process, complete with total and complete bloating, back aches, cramps, etc?! It's one of THOSE months. My back is still killing me....im so freaking bloated my rings wont fit my fingers...and im just overall crampy. Ugh.
Worse of all, ive been eating a ton less and walking more...and i feel like ive gained like 10 lbs this week. Im just having one of those "FAT" weeks. I feel and look frumpy, despite trying to do better for myself. Grrr.
Some schmuck hacked into my Yahoo account. What a pain in the butt trying to get Yahoo to get it back for me...... it takes someone 2 seconds to hack in and change everything...but takes them 7-10 days to get it back. WTF?!
I hurt my baby again last night. :-( .... when she got out of the shower, i noticed a big ol gunk of wax right in her ear. Now...i *KNOW* Q-tips are a big NO NO for ears.....ESPECIALLY for lil kids ears. But...i figured it was right there, and i could swab it right out quickly.
Now... Paige has always had a "thing" about her face. She still fights me to this day if i attempt to wipe her mouth-- will NOT allow anyone to wipe her nose (and still refuses to learn to BLOW her own nose!)... her ears are super ticklish, and she doesnt like anyone touching those either. Putting lotion on her chapped cheeks has always been a fight as well.
Anyhow...i sat her on my lap, faced away from me...grabbed a q-tip to just scoop that gunk out...and right as i went to scoop....she started screaming at me and flinched her head right down..... toward the q-tip...and IN it sailed...right into her ear. EEEK!!!! Initially, i was angry...cause i had just asked her to sit still for 2 seconds, and she couldnt even handle that. I remove the q-tip...and she is SCREAMING now. I tell her to relax, its not big deal...and begin telling her how she really needs to listen to mommy and just sit still, blah blah blah....then i see it. Blood. A ton of it....rushing out of my baby girl's EAR!!!!!
Bite my tongue, woman. My heart sinks. She is crying. I grab a tissue and hold it over her ear. She's naked and in a towel. My mind races...ok.... what to do?! I sit her on her bed and go grab the phone to call the doctor. It's 8pm at night. There is a pediatricain on call...they have me leave her a voice mail message. I get off the phone...and mind you...Paige is still screaming. I felt like such an ass having to leave her alone...but i needed to think, and couldnt talk on the phone with screaming child next to me. So i go back to her...and try to settle her down by singing, tickling...and get her into her PJ's. Works a lil...I did get her to crack a smile....which helped relieve my stress a bit....i agreed to let her stay up later and go watch Tv. We laid on the couch for a lil while...the bleeding subsided some. I got up for a bit to check online to see if there was anything I could do to help her...and thankfully, found my friend Kristen online-- whom works/worked in the audiology field and is also going to school for it too. She helped settle my fears that i deafened my child for life. The doctor called back around 8:45pm..... basically to say all the same things that Kristen said. Basically, they think i punctured her ear drum. Ears, much like mouths & noses....are natural bleeders. It will heal on it's own and shouldnt cause any long term damage. The doctor called in some antibiotic ear drops as a precautionary...I have to give them to her 2x a day....just to ensure the ear stays clean and heals properly. I have to keep her ear 100% dry for the next week or so. Poor kid.
When she woke this morning, there was some old blood on her pillow from the ear. I attempted to give her the drops this morning.....oh my......what a battle. The kid doesnt trust me....and who could blame her?! Mommy shoved a cotton stick into her ear drum. She kicked, screamed, cried. *Sigh*. She says it doesnt hurt much anymore tho...which is a good sign. Only 9 more days of ear drops, 2x a day. :-P
Breathe, mommy....breathe!
On a brighter note...it's in the mid-50's today and sunny!
2 comments:
So sorry that this happened! I know that feeling when you accidently hurt them :(. I'm sure the guilt you feel is worse than her ear. And a positive note is that the Dr didn't even see the need for you to come in. I hear you on the drops. Reese fights those and eye drops, OMG! That is the absolute worst!
Ouch, Vicky! There's nothing worse than your kid sick or hurting.... My heart started racing as I read about Paige. I'm glad she feels better. It's so hard when they are so fidgety, Emma never stands still and I'm always so scared that I'm going to hurt her.
Sorry also that you're having a rough time with AF, not fun.
I recommend you read Twilight. It will take your mind or reality at least for a little while :-)
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