Crazy Week

Last night we were at my work til after 7pm. Thankfully Wendy showed up with Nathan around 6-- Nathan & Paige played hide & seek, running throughout the radio station--keeping each other entertained while I helped stuff the 800 Taste of Home gift bags. Phew.

Have 2 possible plans tonight...but i think Im gonna pass on both and just head home. This week's been crazy, and the next 2 days will be even crazier (tho only for me, really...).

The house thing-- still mixed emotions. I was getting super excited, but Mike sort of tossed some crap into it today. He made a good suggestion----for us to refinance......but i worry my overloaded credit will hurt it. Plus, i do not have the patience to get into that crap again right now. I told him it was a good idea...but...he needs to run the ball with it this time (I am the one that 1. Found our home, 2. Found a lender, 3. Did all the paperwork, running around, scheduled the closing, etc-- he just showed up when and where he needed to be. ). So.... my guess is....we wont be refinancing--- or at least if we do, i will be VERY surprised. Ive given him this chance to be the man in the relationship and get something done before, and he fails 70% of the time. So...we'll see. Surprise me, please?

He also suggested, after a conversation with his dad-- to rent out our house rather than sell it right now. Fine & Dandy...but guess who would be responsible still? Most likely me. If he can guarantee me to be a SAHM when we move-- otherwise, i cannot take on the additional responsibilty of having a rental place, plus owning our own home, parenting, job, and the rest of everything. Know what i mean? I dunno...maybe it is a good idea.... it's just not sinking in with me quite yet. I'd rather sell and be done with one home before moving onto a new. One thing at a time....

Paige is soooo overtired today-- shes being a pill & a half. She's been at my work for an hour and has been in time-out 2x already. The lying and sneakiness MUST stop. I just caught her playing with water & tissues and soap in my work bathroom (she told me she had to go potty-- liar!). *Sigh*.

I still want that house. BAD. But i dont want the pain in the ass effort that it takes to get there. Yea, i know. Cant do it without trying. Maybe next week I will have a better attitude about things after this cooking show is over. Right now Im just anxious about work, our future, etc..

I wanna be a spoiled little Princess and have the world taken care of all around me.

Will write more when Im feeling more positive!