*Sigh*

I am discombobulated, hurting and still frustrated and bored most days.

Not liking life right now.

Trying to focus on the important great things about it.

If another person whines about getting knocked up or scared she might be by accident.... Im gonna reach through the screen or phone and punch them.


Some of us have been trying for a long time and get nothing.

I've had enough.

My heart is crying and sobbing inside, but my brain cant take anymore. I can't do pills and drugs...my body just can't handle chemicals. The longer this doesnt happen, the bigger the gap gets between kids...and I don't want any bigger of a gap than there is right now.

Im gonna list all the baby stuff on Craigslist to make it official. Should get a few hundred from it all.

And that line above just made me start to cry.

I need to go now.


Oh yea, and i haven't spoken to my family in 2 months now. Out of sight, out of mind. My parents havent even called to say hello. I don't know why. :-(