As a dear friend lays to rest her child that came too early tomorrow.... I pray for her and her family. I pray for peace of mind.... sorrow can be such a dangerous thing.....locked up inside ones head...where no one else sees it but you. Life is so unfair at times, and only time can heal some wounds. It will take time for this to pass. I am so sorry.
This situation only mortifies me even more. On some TTC boards I have been on recently, I have encountered MANY woman whom have lost.... many in the 3rd trimester....which astonishes my obviously once naive mind. To carry to full-term then lose? A pain no woman should EVER encounter. When I was pregnant with my daughter, I knew and worried about the obvious 1st trimester miscarry woes. Once we got into the 2nd.... every few weeks was a celebration. By 20 weeks, I was feeling her consistently kicking and punching ...flipping around......and I suppose, ignorance was bliss....but I felt certain all was going to be OK from there on out.
And thankfully all was.
But oh so much CAN happen. And the more I learn and witness and meet... the more I become absolutely mortified in FEAR.
Can I do this again.... knowing all of this? I am NOT a mentally stable person. I worry if something horrific were to happen....I would not be able to handle it in any sane way. Am I jeopardizing the greatness I have currently?
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