Comfortably numb…

I am feeling.

Thanks to a bottle of Fish Eye….. which mixed well with some dark chocolate M&M’s and some Chex Mix. Call it my dinner/snack. ;-)

Today wasn’t bad—just a bit crazy and some disappointments. I was frazzled by day’s end and in dire need of some “assistance”.

Anyhow…work’s been super slow—half my staff is on a cruise still.

P had her 6 week follow-up appointment with the ENT today. We promised her it would be quick…he just needed to LOOK at her ear…nothing was gonna hurt, no one was gonna do anything else.  He was gonna say everything looked good, and then we wouldnt have to go back anymore.
She was well prepared. Maybe too much? I wonder …cause once again….she FREAKED OUT when he tried to look in her ear. I couldnt hold her down! I bear hugged her…and she is one strong bugger! The doctor was quick to call in a Nurse to help. She held back P’s head, while I wrestled her flairing arms & legs. Not an easy task folks…it was comical, yet heart breaking at the same time.

It took a few minutes before we finally got her still enough for him to see in her ear. He didn't “see” what I hoped. He says there is still a lot of dried blood in there and a hard ball of wax too. He said he wasn’t sure enough to fully discharge her as “healed”. He put her back on nightly ear-drops….says the ear isn't cleaning it self like it SHOULD be. He hopes the drops will help moisten it up some to get that dried blood OUT and loosen the wax. When all is cleared out—he should be able to give a final assessment. We go back AGAIN in 4 weeks.  :-( ….. MORE drops. MORE FUCKING DROPS!!!! I feel so shitty about all of this again. *sigh*. She’s being a trooper---even if she fights us tooth & nail when anyone TOUCHES her ears. *sigh* We just do what we gotta do….. Hopefully the next appt, we get  the green light that everything is healed!!!!!!

Then we ran to Wal-Mart…needed tissues, soap, and catfood. I got us some snacks for our trip too. Then to the bread-outlet …and I let P get a treat (she picked a strawberry/cheese Danish). THEN to Playgroup. (did i mention this is all after a day of working at the office?).

Home after….to discover my husband did a whole lot of NOTHING while home all day. Again. A pile of socks….JUST socks…i folded every single other god-damn piece of laundry……still lay on the chair in the living room. He couldn’t be bothered. Cereal all over the living room floor. Grrrrr. My mom is staying over tomorrow night…..i don’t expect the house to be spic & span…but at least tidy and no food or clothing hanging around! Grrrr!

So tomorrow after work—we need to grocery shop….and P wants to go to the park. Then I need to fly home…put the groceries away, cook dinner…..then pick the house up and vacuum—then pack for the 2 of us (Mike can pack his own crap!). Oh y ea…and I need to pay some bills too! *Yawn*…im tired already just thinking about it.  Being a woman sucks sometimes……!!!!!!

Can I do this vacation on my own? LOL.