Life

Ya know the great thing about America? Yes...freedom of speech...and freedom to BITCH i suppose....but also the freedom to LEAVE!!! If it sucks that bad....LEAVE!! Canada is nice, so i hear. Geesh, people.

So ive come to the conclusion....which i already know...that birth control pills are EVIL! WTF did it do to me?! I made it 28 years without EVER taking one. Started on them last March, in efforts to try to regulate my cycles and perhaps dull my horrible PMS associated vomiting i get right before AF comes (lovely, eh?). 6 months on it...my mind/moods were tooo wacky. Tho, i did love the 10 lb weightloss it brought! First month off the pill...no big deal. Got my period 30 days later.... all was fine. This month tho...WTF?! I was 4 days late. When it came...it lasted all of 1 day...then quickly disappeared a day and a half later. I tossed my cookies the day it arrived for HOURS. Confused, i tested....negative. I am STILL crampy. Boobs are sore...i'd swear i was pregnant or something...but nope....everything points to negative. So annoying. I hope my next cycle is a bit more "normal"....

Paige hasnt asked for a binky once!!! HOORAY!!! Proving she actually understood the whole giving up concept. Go Paigey, Go!

Money is sooo tight right now...we've had to buy heating oil and groceries on credit (insert a big SOBBING smiley here). UGH. We cannot afford to add anymore debt...but what else can we do? We cant risk starving or freezing! Every penny we earn has been going to mortgage, electric, water, Tv (which is as basic as it can be...it's only $35 a month!!!), vehicles, gas, and paying our credit card debts. Not a penny leftover. So upsetting. I need a money tree...or to win the lottery. Really. I dont need millions. Just a couple thousand would be cool. I wont be greedy.... we never "messed up"...never taken money for granted....also pay everything on-time...yet still...in the end....we're always fucked financially. No fair!

Ah well. I am trying to stay optimistic....cause really....being stressed does no good, right? Life is OK otherwise....my kiddo rocks, love my car, we own a decent home... hubby is cool...and we have our health.

Work is driving me batty. Must get back to it....