Ok.... So if you peruse back to early February...I am in a panic over the fact that this baby must be a girl. Because...well... Im a girl's mom. I don't know baby boys. We have all girl toys. Pink Barbie Jeep. Bins and boxes of adorable baby girl clothes. My daughter is as girly as girly gets..which was initially so wild to me, because I was SUCH A TOMBOY. I never liked pink until my daughter was born, and now I adore it, and even wear it. Ive embraced it and dig having a daughter. Its what I know. Ive yearned for another girl.... "my girls"... just seemed to click...
But suddenly, I CANNOT imagine having ANOTHER daughter. I am in a panic. WTF? How could I ever love another little girl as much as I love this one? I feel like I will constantly be comparing her to her big sister. She'll be "just another girl". Been there, done that...big whoop de doo. I have no excitement over the idea. Where is this coming from? And how AWFUL of a Mom am I?! Suddenly, All I can envision is having a baby boy. Check yesterday's blog entry. And last night, I dreamt I had a boy again...he was about 3, named Chase (not a name on my list). He had spikey blonde hair and was rambunctious. He wasn't listening to me, and I had to hold him down and buckle him in in this van we were all riding in....explaining that his sister was buckled in and safe, and he had to be too...that we loved him and wanted him to stay safe too. Meanwhile, Paige was contently sitting all buckled in next to him.
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Oi, Pregnancy hormones are CrAzY!
On a side note, over the past month, I have dreamed that I have had sex with every ex I have ever had. Haha!
LOL.
2 comments:
You know what? EVERY Mom worries that there's no way she can a second child as much as the first! It's a totally normal response. I'll tell you this though, as soon as you see that baby, with the same genetic qualities as Paige, you will fall in love with him or her exactly the same as you did with P! You'll be surprised that you can love another child as much as her, at the same time - but you will!! :) It's amazing! And if you do have another girl, you will find SO much pleasure in using all of her old newborn things and finding out how different another girl can be! Whichever way it turns out, it's going to be PERFECT for your little family. :D
I needed that too Emily! :-)
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