Sunday, March 20, 2022

It does sting....still

I hesitate saying this aloud....but I want to get it off of my chest. Seeing people post big milestone birthday parties.....stings.

It reminds me that I don't have anyone in my life that would plan or consider throwing one for me. 

The last birthday party I had was when my Mom threw a joint one for me and my husband when we turned 30. 

I've attended countless 40th birthday bashes over the years. 

But mine came and went a few years ago ....and nothing....just any other birthday....with a few cards, a couple little gifts, and a bunch of social media shout outs. Maybe one phone call ....and that's it.

Seeing people be appreciated and celebrated....it just....hurts. it shouldn't, I guess....just jealousy? Perhaps my own fault....my own fault for being me and obviously having no one close. 

Ah well. Happy others are happy, I suppose. 

Still stings, though......

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