Happy birthday to me......

Jealousy is an awful thing...yet im riddled with it often. I know I shouldn't be...and I dont want to be...but it still fills my heart and guts.....and makes me feel so left out and forgotten.  I know they are busy and there is new fun in life.....but......im here....and my birthday came and went.....and no one really seemed to care. That hurts. I dont want it to hurt. I want to shake it off and hold my head up high....but I cant seem to do it. I want someone to make a big deal about me..just once.....just maybe one day a year.....i thought at least parents were good for that...but...outta sight, out of mind. My fault for moving so far away.  :-(
People just disapoint. Not sure why I bother.